I think I should mark this day as....

[zen_monk]

Today will be the day that I should promise myself a few things. Those things are chiefly what I should do to be more responsible for myself.

I've recently received my midterms back from my American Literature and History of Philosophy classes, and.... they were a wake-up call. I wish I can say that it's because I didn't have enough time to finish them- which is pretty much what happened- but the bottom line was that I didn't study well for the both of them.

I'm chiefly more worried about the philosophy class, because Philosophy is my intended major. Hmm. Well, seeing as how much I sucked on the midterm kind of made me feel a little down on myself. And my teacher kind of knows it, but he is very helpful and he doesn't guilt me- so he's an all-around nice guy. I somehow feel even more ashamed because I genuinely like the teacher and I wanted him to look on me kindly.

Especially since I'll most likely be taking him again for the Fall semester for History of Philosophy-Modern. (MY GOD, that means I'll have known him for more than a year! I feel like some sort of stalker or something).

I should probably get on to those two philosophy papers that were supposed to be done.... in February and in March respectively!? What?! Damn! I suck as a student for Philosophy! It's great that he accepts late papers and only penalizes a maximum of 10 points for late ones, but still!
He knows.... D:

I'm also strongly considering quitting my part-time job as a waitress at the sushi restaurant. Not only do I sometimes feel overworked there and sometimes under-appreciated by customers there, but I think that considering what's happening to me at school, I should perhaps take a break from earning spending-money and really start to work on my academics.

I'm at the point where I am both dissatisfied with what I do at my workplace and what I do at school, and if I were to chop away one, it would have to be work. Especially since my work is customer service, and if I start to hate it there, then everybody else would be affected by my growing negatively and that's not good if I leave on a bad note, specifically for my resume and for future careers/jobs.

Also, since I live with my family and they witness my sliding scale of quality, they started nitpicking everything pretty much everyday. It results in having the same conversations everyday and it all ends up with either "Do you want to be a career waitress?" and/or "From now on, I'm not going to say anything anymore to you; you know what you have to do."

So! Today, I will promise myself. I have about a whole month (WHAT?! WHAT!) of school left, I will study everyday. That means reading the textbooks for all my classes everyday, actually taking a little bit of notes. I also have a Pre-calculus class, so I will work on that textbook if it kills me.

This will be a changed Fallon. This will be the Academic! Fallon as she was always meant to be.

And fanfiction! I have to get started on that!