Zen Crib Notes

 So I went and dropped some money on something I've been thinking about obtaining for a while, and so now I signed up for a 120-hour TEFL online program to get certified. This came after getting an interview for teaching English abroad, and I realized that if I really want to distinguished myself from other applicants (and especially ones whose superficial qualifications would get their foot in the door with greater oomph than me), getting certified would definitely help. 

As well as bolstering my resume in other teaching applications too. 

What i sometimes don't get is what the outrageous price differences are if I chose to sign up for TEFL through like University of Toronto and whatnot, but sometimes I gotta bite the bullet and just try out this non-scammy looking website since many English programs in non-English speaking countries allow some pretty sketchy candidates anyway. 

 Tomorrow, I have an interview for being an undergraduate adviser at UCSB for the Asian American Studies department. Super nervous because it means that the department chair and manager will be there to ask me questions, and so i'm looking online for advise on how to respond to commonly asked questions and what to ask at the end of the interview. 

Also, I knew that the reason I got the chance for the interview was because my mom knew the manager and that as I'm one of three potential candidates, it's probably why I got the thing. A lot of conflicted feelings about this, but I guess this is about as close as I can get to getting an interview for a super real job. 

Still stewing over office job at eye place. I'm feeling a lot of things about that, mainly the "it's not my fault" and "I didn't do anything that would justify getting let go but WHATEVER I GUESS." Intense feelings of disavowment. 

However, I think i passed the CBEST test! At the very least, two of the three subject tests are above the minimum required score to pass, so I'm hoping my writing skills are good enough. It's just like doing a standardized test in high school. But seeing as its been a long time since I've done that, I'm feeling a little salty that my scores aren't high enough.

Feeling dumber than I was when I was in high school, sobs.