Zen Crib Notes

 Tomorrow, I have an interview for being an undergraduate adviser at UCSB for the Asian American Studies department. Super nervous because it means that the department chair and manager will be there to ask me questions, and so i'm looking online for advise on how to respond to commonly asked questions and what to ask at the end of the interview. 

Also, I knew that the reason I got the chance for the interview was because my mom knew the manager and that as I'm one of three potential candidates, it's probably why I got the thing. A lot of conflicted feelings about this, but I guess this is about as close as I can get to getting an interview for a super real job. 

Still stewing over office job at eye place. I'm feeling a lot of things about that, mainly the "it's not my fault" and "I didn't do anything that would justify getting let go but WHATEVER I GUESS." Intense feelings of disavowment. 

However, I think i passed the CBEST test! At the very least, two of the three subject tests are above the minimum required score to pass, so I'm hoping my writing skills are good enough. It's just like doing a standardized test in high school. But seeing as its been a long time since I've done that, I'm feeling a little salty that my scores aren't high enough.

Feeling dumber than I was when I was in high school, sobs.